“What do you mean you can’t do it?”
“I can’t love you Kevin.” Loving you will hurt me, because you won’t love me back. I don’t the words out loud.
“Why not, am I so bad that I can’t be loved, because I am pretty sure that you love me Sienna.”
“You going to leave me.”
“But I will come back, this is who I AM..”
“I know Kevin, and you know that this is who I am , you said it yourself, I am not the one you wanted. I spent my whole life running, pretending, moving since before I was even able to talk. And then I saw you , I was only eight. You have been looking through me my whole life, and now you just barely starting to see me but I tell you Kevin if you dig hard and deep enough you will be disappointed in how ordinary I am. I am not Natasha. I have never been her.”
“I know that.”
“So tell me, I love you with all my heart and she walks through that door right now and tells you she loves you and wants you that you will choose me. You tell me that I will give you my heart. You already own every other piece of me.” I look at him and his eyes say it all. Kevin will never love me, he isn’t capable of that. Because of that very reason his obsession for Natasha will always come first.
How do I blame a soldier who has given his whole life for our country for not loving me. When he can’t love himself.
“Natasha is the only one for you Kevin. You helped Kellan and I, for that I will always be grateful, but your need to protect me is not enough.”
“You don’t know what the fuck you are talking about Sienna. I have been yours since you fell in my arms six years ago.”
I hope you guys enjoyed that small piece. More to follow soon. Let me know in the comments what you think. Sienna and Killer have grown on me, and I am loving the story. It is very different from Beggar and Zero, but I think you guys will enjoy it. The AMAZON link to Beggar is below if you haven’t gotten on The Satan Sniper’s MC’s ride as yet. For all other links go to my website https://shanrk.com
A SUSPENSEFUL ROMANTIC THRILLER ABOUT A MYSTERIOUS WOMAN NAMED BEGGAR
I was on the streets, until I wasn’t. They took me, fed me, clothed me. For a time I was happy, until he came back. I had five years to accept his chains, my monster. He owned me, until I met the Enforcer of The Satan Snipers.
His name was Zero.
He wasn’t just an enforcer. He was a stone blooded killer.
Meet the girl-
I’ve never known a day of being normal or having a hot plate of food to eat. I don’t even know what it feels like to have a bath. The streets of Washington has been my home since the day I was born. As the years went on by, I learnt to survive on these streets, I even learnt to smile.
I know I should let it rest, but I can’t drop it. I need to know her name. My gut is riding me hard. My instincts are telling me it’s important.
I’m the enforcer. If there’s even a thread that she’s a danger to my club I need to know.
When Beggar saves Falon, she passes the biggest test of a Satan Sniper. Taken as a prospect, Beggar can finally get the life she wanted.
She gets more than she ever hoped to. A mans heart. But with secrets from her past and the man in question set of uncovering the dark that’s plagued her. Will she learn that the enforcer of the Satan Snipers is more than able to handle anything. Even the reason she calls herself Beggar.
“When I was younger I was a beggar by circumstance, when I got older I remained a beggar by choice.” Beggar
BEGGAR IS A FULL LENGTH NOVEL AND THE FIRST BOOK IN THE SATAN SNIPER’S MOTORCYCLE CLUB SERIES.
Book One in the Satan Sniper’s Motorcycle Club. Get your copy today – https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B06XH43DJJ/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_bibl_vppi_i3
How was the first Monday back in the office?
Well, while I was reading Beauty’s Breath, because it is getting released tomorrow, I had this feeling of so much emotion clogging me.
PHEW. So, with all my dramatics I cried horribly. My daughter was looking at me weird. I told her I was reading and she started laughing and said, “Oh mama.”
So long story short, the book is a great book. I am happier with this piece of work than I was with River’s Keeper. The story has you wanting to pull out your hair at times. Which is funny because I wrote it. But I have always wrote stuff for my own enjoyment so I find it easy to forget that I wrote a book and read it.
I am getting off track again, sorry guys. When reading Zero and Beggar’s fight scene it hit me. Killer’s Story.
So I wrote a small piece and It isn’t much but I want to share it with you guys.
“Baby girl you breaking my heart.”
“Kevin, don’t please, I just, I can’t.” Words don’t come easy when a heart is breaking, it gets harder when the only one who can mend it chooses not to.
“I thought I will never find a woman who made me feel, but baby girl, I love you. You are it for me Sienna. You were never the one I wanted, but you are the only one I will ever want again.”
“I know baby, I feel you too.”
So that is it so far. But I see awesome things coming to the Satan Snipers. I want to spice things up. Killer is also going to get a two or three part story. Then my hope is to write Rivers and Hannah’s story. So more on that soon. Don’t forget to stay awesome. Email me on shanRk@zoho.com and let me know what you people think
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Hello Everyone 😊
A HUGE WELCOME TO ALL THE NEW AWESOME PEOPLE WHO HAVE JOINED OUR BLOG FAMILY 😊🤗
So it took a while….. That seems like the way to start a sentence🤔 with a loaded story.
But I am going to cut this story and say I made some bed decisions and let’t just say Beauty’s Breath was not ready when I said.
I promised myself that infuture when I am setting a release date, I will give a bit of leeway and take into account the bitter parts of messing up when your book is due for publishing.
A big apology to everyone who had to wait and to all of you, the subscribers for not posting these last weeks.
I have finally completed the editing of Beauty’s Breath and had to do it myself, so be lenient, I am a writer not an editor. 😊
Beauty’s Breath was really good to write, it was emotionally charged at times, it is a bit funny, lots of Club stuff with the Satan Snipers looking for the killer.
😨SPOILER ALERT: There is a big twist in the story, and the killer is not who you think it is…. A new romance blossoms between two unlikely club members and there is a new guy from the Houston Chapter.😊
So according to the schedule I set, on Monday next week I will post the Synopsis and the first three CHAPTERS will follow on Tuesday 😊 with a few teasers.
If you want to see some teasers then follow my instagram page on shanrk1
And finally the release date will be next week Friday (7th September 2018) 😊
Mark it on your calendar😊.
And you know what else? It is my 10th Book Published so I am going to be giving prizes next week and the following week.😊
So stay tuned to the blog and watch for my emails and you might just be a winner😊
I will be posting about the journey writing Beggar and Zero’s story, some pics and maybe a small video (i am thinking about that) and the deleted scenes(there are a lot of those)
In Beauty’s Breath at the back I will be post a small part from Marco and Aliyana’s story which is the next book I am publishing called Capo dei Capi (Boss of all Bosses) the first book in The Famiglia series)
If you have read Kylie Bray then you would know who they are. If not, then Marco is Deno’s older brother and the main head of the Italian Mafia Crime family in New York.
They are the family of Beggar.
So if you like Suspense Thrillers with a romantic edge to it then give it a read. 😊
ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND AND REMEMBER THAT YOUR HAPPINESS IS THE GREATEST JOY YOU WILL EVER FEEL AND THAT IS WHAT MAKES LOVING YOURSELF THE GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT YOU WILL ACHIEVE.
I was once just a beggar on the street, then like all poor girls I met a prince and fell in love but I didn’t get my happily ever after as beauty was the Devil’s joke that only the blind could see.
So a twist in my tale I ended up becoming a hunter, and executioner until one day an Enforcer crossed my path.
I told him I will destroy him, I did. I never lied. He loves me, but what he doesn’t know is that his love for me won’t change the direction of my bullet, just the expiration date.
“My end by your hands, would be like this water touching the moon.” Beggar
“Give me one reason why I shouldn’t kill you right now?” Zero
“I can give you a hundred why you should.” Beggar
So I have waited till the last minute to tell you guys that Beauty’s Breath is still not done.
I spoke to the editor and she said by next Wednesday but I have decided if it is not done on Tuesday next week I will publish it anyway by Friday and do my own editing as I do not know how long it takes for a person to edit a novel.
I really do apologise and hope in the future to find a new editor that is more competent with time and deadlines.
I will be posting a few adverts this week and the cover would be up from tomorrow as well as a synopsis.
Please do not send me bad mail, I am aware that you guys are upset and some just frustrated but it was really a lack of judgement from my side so I take full responsibility and will make sure the book is published on Friday 7th September 2018
For everyone waiting for Beauty’s Breath you guys need to wait till next week Friday.
I have not gotten a cover back from the People who Design my covers and the book is still getting edited by editors. The Editor will send it back on Monday.
Sorry for the delay. I have tried😊
Enjoy your Weekend and Live, Love and never forget to Laugh 😊
“hey, how’s the leg? ready to get the fuck off that damn thing.” I ask my brother.
It has been weeks since he arrived to the clubhouse. A month and three days since Amariya Demarco betrayed us all. I called her Beauty, even though she insisted we call her Beggar.
I dumped Falon. I gave up everything for her and all she did was remind me what a failure I am. I was supposed to protect the clubhouse, my brothers, our women and I failed them all.
I live with it, the guilt and with the guilt comes my shame because where ever I look where ever I walk in this place I see her.
Those black eyes, that long hair and pale skin. Her voice haunts me. She is inside me. Like a layer of flesh attached to my very being.