“What do you mean you can’t do it?”
“I can’t love you Kevin.” Loving you will hurt me, because you won’t love me back. I don’t the words out loud.
“Why not, am I so bad that I can’t be loved, because I am pretty sure that you love me Sienna.”
“You going to leave me.”
“But I will come back, this is who I AM..”
“I know Kevin, and you know that this is who I am , you said it yourself, I am not the one you wanted. I spent my whole life running, pretending, moving since before I was even able to talk. And then I saw you , I was only eight. You have been looking through me my whole life, and now you just barely starting to see me but I tell you Kevin if you dig hard and deep enough you will be disappointed in how ordinary I am. I am not Natasha. I have never been her.”
“I know that.”
“So tell me, I love you with all my heart and she walks through that door right now and tells you she loves you and wants you that you will choose me. You tell me that I will give you my heart. You already own every other piece of me.” I look at him and his eyes say it all. Kevin will never love me, he isn’t capable of that. Because of that very reason his obsession for Natasha will always come first.
How do I blame a soldier who has given his whole life for our country for not loving me. When he can’t love himself.
“Natasha is the only one for you Kevin. You helped Kellan and I, for that I will always be grateful, but your need to protect me is not enough.”
“You don’t know what the fuck you are talking about Sienna. I have been yours since you fell in my arms six years ago.”
I hope you guys enjoyed that small piece. More to follow soon. Let me know in the comments what you think. Sienna and Killer have grown on me, and I am loving the story. It is very different from Beggar and Zero, but I think you guys will enjoy it. The AMAZON link to Beggar is below if you haven’t gotten on The Satan Sniper’s MC’s ride as yet. For all other links go to my website https://shanrk.com